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  • I never stopped playing Mortal Kombat 1-3. It’s hard to get someone nostalgic for a time they never left haha.

    I do have the arcade machine now though. My wife spoils me.

    As for my clothes, I’ve smoked, drank, and done way too many drugs to actually look youthful. When old folks tell me that I look younger than I am, I tell them it’s because I’m wearing the same clothes I bought 20 years ago and I look like a college age millennial because of that, and their sense of time is off.


  • theangryseal@lemmy.worldtomemes@lemmy.worldNO DOGS IN HOUSE
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    I wish I hadn’t to be honest with you. I wish I could have carried on relating to my family, ignorant of the problems of this world.

    I miss believing in ghosts. I miss the comfort I got praying as I walked through a dark room. I miss the live music at church a few times a week, the big tent revivals, believing I was seeing actual miracles when faith healers called someone up.

    I miss that short window in life when the only things that I knew related directly to me and my community.

    I don’t miss any of it enough to actually, honestly go back even if I could, but damn.

    I’m just worked up because a stray cat got hit by a car. There’s something wrong with me, I swear haha. Sorry for this.




  • As a parent, I didn’t want to mess my kids up and make them feel shame about natural things. I don’t know what the right way is, but I have tried to avoid that.

    I have enough kids that I know some don’t do it early, some do.

    My approach has been, “hey, that’s a private thing and no one here wants to be a part of it. Go to your room and shut your door.”

    I have no idea if that’s right, and because of my own issues it doesn’t feel right, but that’s been my approach. I try to think about it logically and reasonably despite having to fight the feelings. My instinct was to say, “HEY! CUT IT OUT, THAT’S NASTY!!” All that did for me was give me an association with “nasty” and those feelings and all I had was my mind, and oh boy I wish I could erase the memory of the things I thought about as a kid.

    My daughter is 16, and she’s overly open with me to a level that makes me uncomfortable because she isn’t ashamed of herself.

    I also know that she will be healthy when she’s active because she feels comfortable talking to me.

    She broke up with a girlfriend for pressuring her, and she told her boyfriend that she understands why he wants to do that and why he thinks about it, but she isn’t ready and if he can’t handle that he can go find a girlfriend who is on his level about it.

    With my parents, you did not discuss such things. It was totally forbidden. As a result I had unprotected sex with multiple partners by the time I was 18 and I started when I was 13, started fooling around at about 9. I had some real weirdo adults in my life and I never talked to my parents about it because the thought of them knowing something so shameful about me was too heavy.

    I had my first child at 16 years old. I do not believe that would have happened if I had access to education and I could have talked to my parents without feeling shame.

    It feels like I’m going against my very nature when my daughter talks to me about things, but I grit my teeth and bare it, and she’s in a much safer and healthier place than I was at her age. She laughs and me because I blush and can barely look at her when she brings it up.

    Maybe I’m doing one thing right in a sea of things I’m definitely getting wrong haha.

    I believe we should feel shame about some things and that’s why we have to contend with it in the first place. We shouldn’t be ashamed of natural things though.

    We’re here because of a long line of creatures and people banging. I don’t know why we freak out about it so bad.




  • I don’t understand how these kids get caught. They gotta be really slow or something.

    I was caught 0 times as a teenager. My mom never found my porn.

    My brother was caught a few times. My cousin was caught in the damn car on a family vacation with OTHER PEOPLE IN THE CAR just yanking his noodle under a blanket.

    I was so cautious as a kid. I guess because I was caught and thoroughly shamed when I was about 4 years old. Maybe that’s why I never got caught when I was old enough for it to matter. That shame gave me a lifelong lesson.

    I had a motion detecting toy dinosaur at the bottom of the stairs. When someone approached the stairs it would go, “raaaaaawr, raaaaaawr” and I’d be sitting at the foot of the bed reading a book by the time someone got upstairs.

    If they suspected anything, didn’t matter. I was reading.

    When I got high speed internet (as it was called in those days) I threw out the tapes and magazines. I had a separate hard drive I’d plug into my computer juuuuuust in case, and since I was always messing with and tearing into my computer, my mom never found anything. That drive had Linux, my mom was scared of Linux.

    Now that I think about it, holy shit they fucked me up haha.

    When they caught me as a little guy my mom said, “oh shamy, shamy.” And my dad said, “you keep messing with that thing and it’ll fall off and you’ll turn into a girl.” They spent the whole day giving me that, “oh you shameful creature” look.

    Haha, man. Wow.

    Yeah, maybe my people just messed me up.







  • My mom didn’t work. My dad made minimum wage. I grew up in a 5 bedroom, 2 story house. My mom and dad each had a car, and my dad always had a truck to haul shit around.

    I have been called a liar at least 100 times in the last 10 years when I say this online.

    My mom and dad paid less than 30k for that house. It needed a little work, but we were able to move into it as soon as they closed on the loan.

    They were able to borrow against their equity any time they needed anything.

    Sure, we didn’t have fancy vacations. We mostly went to South Holston (Tennessee) and camped and fished. A few times we went to Dollywood.

    My kids have never had a vacation because I could never afford it. I live in a shitty apartment and we can barely afford that.

    I fucking miss having all of that space so bad, and if I had been smart I would have fought with everything in me to keep that place and I’d have found a way to do the repairs it needed.





  • My experience with psychedelics (enjoyed with others) is that what you experience relates directly to you the person.

    For me, I was already terribly empathetic and I became crippled with empathy, incapable of any move in any direction that didn’t benefit everyone.

    Ego death doesn’t happen for everyone. Some egos are too big to kill and grow even larger.

    That is my anecdotal experience. I knew someone who went from huge ego to an ego to end all egos.

    He woke up the next day convinced that the world needed him.

    I’ve never done ketamine though.

    LSD, DMT, and mushrooms. That’s it for me.




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